I Share: Thanks For The Memories

At dahil wala akong kakuwentuhan for this week...kwento ko muna ang isha-share ko sa inyo. Hahaha. At ito ay tungkol sa LOVE. :)) Hahahaha.


It's hard to fall in love...most especially in my case where I have to turn the whole world upside down and get crazy just to enjoy love life. :)

I never had a labeled relationship. I haven't even experienced being courted, or courting. Duh. I can't woo and it's hard to find someone who'll do that to me. :)

But of course, I experienced falling in love...maybe, a lot of times? But the real love that I really felt happened once.

But it never did.

You guys know that! :) hahaha. That part of my life has been an open book to everyone most especially those who have been reading my blog ever since this started.

And after many attempts of forgetting, letting go and moving on...here I am. I have...

FORGOTTEN.

LET GO.

And I am near of...

MOVING ON.

Well, I cannot say that I have fully moved on, but I am sure I am in that stage already. And in just a few days or so, I can fully move on. Most especially now that I am actually liking somebody else.

But that's not the point.

It was in May 1 when I woke up and just randomly thought of something...

"What if that someone comes back and that someone realized that he likes you ever since but was afraid of telling you and admitting that to himself?"

I am so assuming, right?

But what if that moment really comes?

Well, I answered it...and my answer was...

"AYOKO NA."

Then last May 25 (the day I am composing this entry), I saw of a picture of that someone.

I can't hide that I am still amused by his looks. He is so damn good-looking most especially now...

Then I decided to stalk one of his social media accounts and looked at his photos...

I stared at the pictures...and started saying what I want to say! (Talking to myself mode? Hahaha.)

"Ang gwapo mo talaga...

Kaso...

Hanggang dun na lang yon...

No more na. Stop na.

Masyado nang maraming nangyari.

And I need to open my eyes that...nothing happened, nothing's happening and nothing will happen.

I accepted it already.

Let's get this over and done with!"

I am not saying that I am closing my doors for friendship. We are friends...up to this moment (I guess? But we haven't talked for a while.), and nothing happened for us not to be friends. We never argued. We never fought. But I guess, that's it. Nothing more. Nothing less.

And I know that I am so assuming. I fall too fast. I fall too hard. But I guess I learned my lesson.

I'll just wait until the right one comes.

But to tell you, I never regretted falling for this person because I was happy at those moments, and I learned a lot from that experience.

And right now, I am watching a TV Show, SRO Cinemaserye presents Moshi, Moshi I Love You. :) And Rufa Mae's character said, "Balang araw, tatawanan na lang din tong mga kalokahan na to!"

Right now, I maybe falling for somebody else but it's not my priority right now. I have a lot of dreams, and I really prioritize getting decent grades at of this moment. :)

And as for the person I am talking about in this entry: Sorry that I am blogging about you again! Haha. And thanks for the memories!! :)