Addiction is one thing we had a hard time letting go. Like nung addiction ko sa Magkaribal, I have the complete set of the DVDs and during my leisure time, I watch episodes na talagang tumatak sa akin! (the tahol scene of Gretchen Baretto! And of course, You Want War, I'll give you war scene!") Sabi nga ng friend ko, yun daw pala ang mahirap saken, that it's hard for me to let go. Parang sa love, napakahirap din I-LET GO. Sobra. :)
"Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believe in a love forever more How do you leave it in a drawer?"
When you find out that the one you love isn't, and will never be in love with you, anong gagawin mo? Will you stay, or will you let go and move on? Ako. I did stay, that was almost a year. But of course, napapagod din naman ang heart. And finally, after how many months, natutunan ko din mag let go. Kahit man lang sa love. October 27 was the day (actually night). I did let go of my feelings, and I am on the final stage of moving on. October 28, the almost 3500 messages, they're gone, well except for 181 (pampakilig)! And earlier, the 20 peso bill, na malutong pa ha, pinanload ko na. Imagine, I was able to keep that 20 peso bill on my wallet for 5 months! I'm not even tempted na gastusin yun! And now. HAHA. Na kay ateng nagloload na! :))
"Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go..."
Yes, masakit din naman siya, when one day you finally realized na hinding hindi naman mangyayari yun. Well as I said in my previous entries (check that May 2011) I'm not expecting na mapupunta dun, although siyempre may part sa akin na gusto ko. Pero diba, ako kasi I am very open-minded, and I know the realities of life. :) But then it hurts, lalo na pag dati, pag nagmomove on ako, shit, PARAMDAM NA NAMAN! :) But now, parang ganun din eh, nagpaparamdam, pero you know, kasi dati pag andito na ko sa stage na to, tas biglang ganun na naman, Back to Zero, pero this time, hindi talaga! :)
"Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door..."
Oh yeah right, sabi ng madami kong friends, "WOOO, BABALIK DIN YAN!" hahaha. Well, siyempre may factor na gusto kong bumalik, pero honestly ngayon, konti na lang na percentage. As in parang I feel na, I'm stronger now, kaya ko na 'to. Kasi diba, nabuhay naman ako noon nung wala pa siya, why not now? HAHA! Eh yun nga kasi eh, dumating sa buhay mo diba! But now I am sure. I CAN DO IT.
Maybe now, I learned the Art of Letting Go, kasi nakakatiis na ako. Nakakayanan ko na unlike before where I would end up NEARLY CRYING. Nearly lang ah, NEVER AKO IIYAK SA GANYAN! :)
Basta ako, I'll just go with the flow of life. Malay naten, maiba ihip ng hangin. HAHA! Goodluck naman. :)
So, that's it. Thank you sa song ni Jennylyn Mercado or Mikaila. Sino ba original sa inyo? HAHA.
I love you followers! Nakita ko naka 64 views ang page ko kahapon, at sobrang achievement yun dahil lumagpas sa 40! :))
-->JIMPY♥ 10/29/11 11:50PM
