Honestly...

HONESTLY..

Honestly, wala na akong maiblog, madami akong gustong i-blog pero hindi ko mai-execute. (Pero nafefeel ko na mamaya dadami ang posts ko.)

Parang ayoko nang ituloy tong blog. Hahaha. :) Pag nakita niyo yung Dashboard ko, ang dami kong drafts sa blogspot. Eto nga ang tagal bago ko matuloy tuloy. :')

Masasabi ko lang...goodluck, sana may maiblog ako, dahil namimiss ko na. :D


-->PIPAY♥ 3/15/12 11:11PM
Chapter 3 of 12.
Page 74 of 366.
"HONESTLY"

When your happiness becomes an issue to others.

May mga bagay na talagang sadyang nagpapasaya sa atin, whether it may be a person, people or a thing, or things. It might give us the entertainment we wished to have, or whatever satisfaction we like.

Ako, madami akong happiness sa buhay, pero sa tingin kong talagang nakakapagpasaya sa kin is watching Teleseryes, reading all about it, at lahat lahat na ng craziness na magagawa ko.

Eto lang naman yung mga CRAZINESS na yun eh. :)

1. Nangongolekta ako ng memorabilia, so far marami rami na siya.
2. Todo promote ako pag may bagong teleserye, pero di ko na siya masyadong ginagawa ngayon, plus nagGGM ako pag may palabas na bago, or next na. Yung susunod na, ginawa ko lang yun sa Magkaribal, Nasaan ka Elisa o kaya pag finale show.
3. Pinapanuod ko sa internet yung mga namimiss kong episodes ng show. Pero recently lang ako nagstart na talagang every night.
4. Nagbabasa ako ng mga tungkol sa Teleserye, pag may latest. Pero lagi ko siyang bukambibig, as in all the time.
5. Gumagawa ako ng sarili kong mga teleserye. Pangarap ko kaya maging writer.
6. Na-apply ko ang mga linya ng teleserye sa real life. Pag nanunuod ako lalo na ng Magkaribal, memorize ko na. Haha. :)

Sa pagkakaalam ko, yan lang naman ang ginagawa ko. Kaso nagiging issue na siya sa iba, mapasa school o sa bahay. I really don't know why, but I don't think naman that they're hindering my happiness, but the fact that it is an issue to them, it's just so plain shit. Walang pakialamanan diba. I know some are concerned, and they're telling me that it's too much. But honestly, I can't see anything wrong, I don't think it's too much. Unless nakasakit na ako, or worse nasaktan ko na sarili ko, like yakap ko na yung TV na bukas pagtulog.

May nagsabi sa akin na nakakaapekto na daw ang addiction ko sa iba. For example is that nagGM ako ng bagong TV show and they watched it because of me. Hello, I just did that to promote, not to command or dictate that you should watch it. Affecting others isn't my fault, it's theirs because they let themselves be affected or whatever, so clearly, I have no say with that. Of course gusto ko na mapanuod nila that's why I am promoting, but that doesn't mean they really have to watch it or what.

Next, ang Jologs na daw ng addiction ko. I am not hurt with that, but shit, don't you think that it's actually patriotism that is being practiced here? MyG! Watching foreign movies is good, but the fact that you insult your own country's works. Oo maaaring ang ideas natin minsan recycled na, but there is still that Philippine touch. And honestly, I do think that we are the best creators of soap operas. The other countries, all they know was fantasy and fantasy, suspense and suspense. Their love stories are cool, and our love stories may be repetitive. But whatever you say, ALL LOVE STORIES ARE THE SAME, JUST NEW PLOT, NEW SITUATION, but it's still A DAMN LOVE STORY!

Next, my school friends and I are talking about Teleseryes and the 1st of the 10 Commandments which is "You should not have other Gods besides me.". And they say that I am actually making Teleseryes my god alongside our Creator. Yes I know I am too addicted with soap operas, but I am not forgetting my obligations with Christ. Yes I know there are temptations that I don't like to attend mass because there's The Buzz and all, but at the end of the day, I am with God the Father, fulfilling my Sunday Obligation, loving and respecting God as who He is, and I pray every night, I don't replace God with other things, with Teleseryes or what. I know to myself that I never did that. :)

WHOO! Nailabas ko din lahat ng nasa puso ko. Grabe parang maiiyak ako habang sinusulat ko to. Eh kasi namin, I understand naman why are they reacting that way. They also have their addictions, but I guess they're not as dedicated as I am. And I believe that this will be my future job. Gusto ko tong ginagawa ko, mahal ko tong ginagawa ko. And I am looking forward to be a teleserye writer, and I can visualize it. Ang dami ng concepts ko, and I believe, di naman sa pagyayabang, na I have what it takes to be one, I have the talent to be. Wala na akong pakialam kung magkakaroon ako ng competitors but to fulfill my dream, that is a big achievement for me!

Basta ako, hangga't alam ko wala akong ginagawang masama, ipagpapatuloy ko to. Hindi ko sinasamba ang mga teleserye. Maybe you have your own definitions of "samba" but I have my own criteria. Wala akong ipinagpapalit. Nagpopromote, nangongolekta, nanunuod, nagsusulat. Yan lang ang ginagawa ko sa buhay ko kasama ang mga teleserye, at wala ng iba. :)

Bigyan niyo na lang ako ng bagong HAPPINESS, o kaya sabihin niyo kay ano, PASAYAHIN niya ko, baka madivert pa attention ko, but I don't think not. Ahaha. :)

By the way, kung nakikita mo to sa blogspot, makikita mo rin to sa tumblr. At kung makikita mo to sa tumblr, makikita mo din to sa blogspot, at kung saan ka man mapadpad, nasa Facebook Notes ko to. If ever, ngayon lang ulit ako magpopost sa FB Notes, para madami makabasa ng sentiments ko. Nyahaha. :)

-->PIPAY♥ 2/17/12 11:49PM

Chapter 2 of 12.

Page 48 of 366.

"HAPPINESS"

Gone are the good days.

Last day na ng puyatan. November 2 bukas, kailangan matulog ng maaga kahit 10:30 pa pasok. Palagay ko mahihirapan akong mag-adjust sa schedule ko. Yung paggising ng maaga, madali na lang yan. Pero yung 10:30 pasok ko, HAHAHA! :D well, 8:00 naman na ako gigising, tapos mga 9:15 siguro ako aalis. :)) HAHA.

Subjects ko sa Thursday: Logic, Rizal, IT and Math. 5:30 uwian. Di ko na mapapanuod Pahiram ng Isang Ina, Ikaw Lang Ang Mamahalin, My Fair Lady, Kung Aagawin Mo Ang Langit, Pinoy Big Brother Unlimited: The Audition Stories, REPUTASYON and Maria La Del Barrio. Idamay na natin ang Nasaan Ka Elisa, Pinoy Big Brother Unlimited at Bandila. Pinaka affected ako sa Reputasyon, sobrang favorite ko na siya eh, napakaganda ng story, deserve nga niya primetime slot eh! :)

Anyway, talagang Gone are the Good Days dahil ayoko na maging bara-bara lang ang performance ko ngayong Second Semester. Pumangit ng konti grades ko ng Fianls ng First Sem though tumaas. Nakulangan ako, kaya ngayon dapat talagang galingan ko na. :) ABMC na ako, di na ako CFP. :)

Mamimiss ko magblog ng ganitong oras, mamimiss ko maginternet habang nanunuod ng Nasaan ka, Elisa, Pure Love/PBB and Bandila. I need to devote my time studying. Di nga rin ako makapaniwala na talagang sobrang top priority ko na ang pag-aaral, which is dapat naman talaga. Yang love? Di naman ako papakainin niyan, nakakapaghintay naman yan,  at ang masaklap pa, wala naman din ako makita! HAHA! Ang TV, kahit papano, importante pa din yan, pangarap ko magtrabaho diyan eh.

By the way, isa pang ipprioritize ko ay ang pagsusulat. Kailangan ko man lang makatapos ng kahit isa this year. Either Teleplay or Romance Novel. At next year, kailangan malista ko na yan sa aking list. :) Speaking of list, gagawa na ako ng Christmas Wish List! HAHAHA! =))

Sana maurong ang pasukan, para malubos lubos ko. HAHA. :D

Anyway, Good night followers, readers, at sa mga simpleng napadaan lang. Walang heartbreak ngayon kaya magpakahappy tayong lahat! :)

-->JIMPY♥ 11/1/11 11:38 PM.

Fallin'.

"I’m afraid to fly
And I don’t know why
I’m jealous of the people who
Are not afraid to die

It’s just that I recall
Back when I was small
Someone promised that they’d catch me
And then they let me fall

And now I’m fallin’
Fallin’ fast again
Why do I always take a fall
When I fall in love

You’d think by now I’d learn
Play with fire you get burned
But fire can be oh so warm
And that’s why I return

Turn and walk away

That’s what I should do
My head says go and find the door
My heart says I’ve found you

Help me I’m fallin’
Fallin’ fast again
Why do I always take a fall
When I fall in love

(it always turns out the same
When I fall)
Lovin’ someone, losin’ myself
Only got me to blame

Help me I’m fallin’

Fallin’
Catch me if you can
Maybe this time I’ll have it all
Maybe I’ll make it after all
Maybe this time I won’t fall
When I fall in love..."

I am now falling in love with this song. Sobra. :)) Tapos when I watched the movie "Catch Me, I'm in Love" starring Sarah G. and Gerald A., parang one way or the other, nakarelate ako. HAHA! :) Pero di pa ngayon, but I do hope na mangyari. Ayoko na lang i-elaborate. (lagi namang ayaw ko eh HAHA!)

But how does it feel na everytime you're down, may sumasalo lagi sayo? Ako, I don't know, pero narealize ko, laging may tumutulong sa akin kapag ka down ako, sa kanya ako lagi nag-oopen bukod sa Girlfriends. Pero di ako in love sa kanya ah! HAHA! :D

Sa ibang anggulo naman ng buhay, (naks lalim) may bumabalik daw na feeling? Nafa-fall ulit? HAHA Ulol. Di na noh. Ayoko na. Masama na ma-fall. Lalo na't ayaw ka namang saluhin! Kaya nga gusto ko din tong song na to, I love the last part!

Help me I’m fallin’
Fallin’
Catch me if you can
Maybe this time I’ll have it all
Maybe I’ll make it after all
Maybe this time I won’t fall
When I fall in love..."


I hope the person who will catch me when I fall is the person I wished. Yung isa kasi, hinayaan lang akong malaglag, hindi ako sinalo. Kaya nga I'm scared na eh, I wish talaga may sumalo sa akin next time! HAHA! =))

HAHAHA. Alam niyo, wala talaga akong maiblog. I'm really scared right now, siyempre Halloween na kaya. HAHA! :) Wish ko lang na mamove ang pasukan namin! :D

Anyway, good night sweeties! :)

-->JIMPY♥ 10/31/11 11:41 PM

The Art of Letting Go.

Earlier, I thought of playing this old game that I became addicted before, The Sims 2. And na-adik na naman ako. Ang hirap i let go ng addiction. Most especially that it was a long time when I last played it.

Addiction is one thing we had a hard time letting go. Like nung addiction ko sa Magkaribal, I have the complete set of the DVDs and during my leisure time, I watch episodes na talagang tumatak sa akin! (the tahol scene of Gretchen Baretto! And of course, You Want War, I'll give you war scene!") Sabi nga ng friend ko, yun daw pala ang mahirap saken, that it's hard for me to let go. Parang sa love, napakahirap din I-LET GO. Sobra. :)


"Put away the pictures. 
Put away the memories. 
I put over and over 
Through my tears 
I've held them till I'm blind 
They kept my hope alive 
As if somehow that I'd keep you here 
Once you believe in a love forever more How do you leave it in a drawer?"

When you find out that the one you love isn't, and will never be in love with you, anong gagawin mo? Will you stay, or will you let go and move on? Ako. I did stay, that was almost a year. But of course, napapagod din naman ang heart. And finally, after how many months, natutunan ko din mag let go. Kahit man lang sa love. October 27 was the day (actually night). I did let go of my feelings, and I am on the final stage of moving on. October 28, the almost 3500 messages, they're gone, well except for 181 (pampakilig)! And earlier, the 20 peso bill, na malutong pa ha, pinanload ko na. Imagine, I was able to keep that 20 peso bill on my wallet for 5 months! I'm not even tempted na gastusin yun! And now. HAHA. Na kay ateng nagloload na! :))

"Now here it comes, the hardest part of all 
Unchain my heart that's holding on 
How do I start to live my life alone? 
Guess I'm just learning, 
Learning the art of letting go..."


Yes, masakit din naman siya, when one day you finally realized na hinding hindi naman mangyayari yun. Well as I said in my previous entries (check that May 2011) I'm not expecting na mapupunta dun, although siyempre may part sa akin na gusto ko. Pero diba, ako kasi I am very open-minded, and I know the realities of life. :) But then it hurts, lalo na pag dati, pag nagmomove on ako, shit, PARAMDAM NA NAMAN! :) But now, parang ganun din eh, nagpaparamdam, pero you know, kasi dati pag andito na ko sa stage na to, tas biglang ganun na naman, Back to Zero, pero this time, hindi talaga! :)


"Try to say it's over 
Say the word goodbye. 
But each time it catches in my throat 
Your still here in me 
And I can't set you free 
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more 
Wish I could open up that door..."


Oh yeah right, sabi ng madami kong friends, "WOOO, BABALIK DIN YAN!" hahaha. Well, siyempre may factor na gusto kong bumalik, pero honestly ngayon, konti na lang na percentage. As in parang I feel na, I'm stronger now, kaya ko na 'to. Kasi diba, nabuhay naman ako noon nung wala pa siya, why not now? HAHA! Eh yun nga kasi eh, dumating sa buhay mo diba! But now I am sure. I CAN DO IT.


Maybe now, I learned the Art of Letting Go, kasi nakakatiis na ako. Nakakayanan ko na unlike before where I would end up NEARLY CRYING. Nearly lang ah, NEVER AKO IIYAK SA GANYAN! :)


Basta ako, I'll just go with the flow of life. Malay naten, maiba ihip ng hangin. HAHA! Goodluck naman. :)


So, that's it. Thank you sa song ni Jennylyn Mercado or Mikaila. Sino ba original sa inyo? HAHA.


I love you followers! Nakita ko naka 64 views ang page ko kahapon, at sobrang achievement yun dahil lumagpas sa 40! :))


-->JIMPY♥ 10/29/11 11:50PM

Confusion...

Whenever I see this pic of his. I don't know what to feel. :)) Because this picture really really makes me fall in love with DIEGO LOYZAGA. :') Grabe, this is the second time I am blogging about him! :')

Eeeeeh. I know I know that masama to, pero alam nyo yun, the more na naiisip ko siya, nakakalimutan ko yung previous heartbreaks ko. :) Nagimbe imbento pa nga ako ng taong "Rick Carlos Gonzales" (Rick from Derrick role nya sa Mara Clara and Carlos na first name nya, Gonzales, surname nya sa Mara clara) na kunyari etong inembento kong tao yung nasa picture at magsyota kame. HAHA! :)) At dahil dun. Confused tuloy ako..Crush ko ba si Diego, or love ko na siya, or I'm just an infatuated fan? :| Scared ako na mafall sa kanya kase sobrang IMPOSIBLE! :'(

Basta pag nakita, nakilala, nakausap at nakapagpapicture ako sa kanya, I'll be the luckiest and happiest person in town. I hope this wish would come truue! :')

Anyway, itigil na natin to. Gusto ko lang maglabas nang nararamdaman. :)) Loveyou followers. :D

-->JIMPY♥♥ 10/18/11

History of My Sweet Teleserye Collection ♥

June 9, 2010. I was at the mall with my mom when we passed through the mini-record bar of SM South Mall. I was shocked when I saw this album...

This was the commemorative album of Star Records for the celebration of 60 Years of Pinoy Soap Opera. Of course, since I'm a teleserye addict, I wanted to have that as soon as possible. And it was 450 pesos. At that time, I don't have the cash! So two days after (June 11, 2010), after we had our sectioning, me and my bffs directly went to SM South Mall. And I had this:

It's with me finally! I am so happy and contented since I had it all, theme songs of teleseryes from Mula sa Puso to Momay (which was the latest at that time).

Then on June 26, 2010, JC and I went again to SM South Mall because she'll buy a Super Junior Album. That was her addiction, all about K-POP. So while she's buying, I was browsing the store, and saw this...

And that time, I admit, I envied JC because she's buying something and I'm not! So, without further ado, I bought it! It was only 250 then. (yabang haha) After that, I had this:

And these...

And these:

Yes, that's how I became addicted! :)) In case you wanted to know, those are the soundtracks of Teleseryes which includes Pangarap na Bituin, Sana Maulit Muli, Lobo, Maging Sino Ka Man, My Only Hope, My Girl etc. And of course, madadagdagan pa yan soon. :)) Dami ko pang di nabibili! :D

Anyway, before I collected these albums, I first had books of Precious Hearts Romances na tinelevise. My first was Ang Lalaking Nagmahal Sa Akin (bought it October 29, 2009!). And many followed. :)

Nagpatuloy ang aking collection when I wished na makakuha ng Tayong Dalawa DVD nung birthday ko last 2010. Fortunately, binigyan ako ni Anna and Krisha. And I love it. HAHA. Naadik din ako sa Magkaribal that's why I bought Volumes 1, 2, 8 and 9 and ginift saken ni Cher, Kathryn and Sarah ung volumes 3, 4, 5 and exchange gift ni Mico saken yung Volumes 6 and 7. Super thankful ako sa kanila. HAHA. :D And nung nakumpleto ko Magkaribal, Maging Sino Ka Man naman, and the rest followed. Eto na siya:

Well, my addiction really started in 2009. Sectioning din yun, nagpaprint ako ng sangkatutak na pictures ng mga logo ng teleserye. HAHA! Grabe noh. :))) Hanggang sa naadik adik ako, nagkasunod sunod, and the rest is History. :)) Eto pa oh. HAHA. :D

Thanks to the people who contributed a lot sa collection ko. Grabe. Ano kayang meron sa buhay ko at naadik ako ng ganto. HAHA. Eh kasi naman, baby pa lang ako, Mara Clara na pinapanuod ng nanay ko, nahawa ako! =)) HAHAHA.

Okay na, napapansin ko, ngarag na ko magblog. Plano kasi dapat straight english, ano na nangyari ngayon! AMP. HAHAHA! :)) And because the system was too slow, I won't elaborate more. I'm sleepy na rin. HAHA. Magblog ba kase 11PM. Uy halos 1 hour to ah. 11:56 na! HAHA! =)))

So Lesson in Life? Treasure all the things you have! HAHA! And nako, instead of ginagastos ang pera sa VICES, dapat sa mga ganto na lang diba! HAHA! lol. :D

So that's the History of My Sweet Teleserye Collection. ♥

-->JIMPY 10/16/11 ♥

What's the best part of being you?

I am True to myself.

Ask me anything, but no rude questions please ;)

If your life was a novel, what would be the title and how would your story end?

It would end up so so happy. The Life Story of a Drama Queen. :)

Ask me anything, but no rude questions please ;)

If you wrote your autobiography, what would the title be?

Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen. Or pwede ring The Drama behind ME. :) HAHA! :)

Ask me anything, but no rude questions please ;)