Honestly...

HONESTLY..

Honestly, wala na akong maiblog, madami akong gustong i-blog pero hindi ko mai-execute. (Pero nafefeel ko na mamaya dadami ang posts ko.)

Parang ayoko nang ituloy tong blog. Hahaha. :) Pag nakita niyo yung Dashboard ko, ang dami kong drafts sa blogspot. Eto nga ang tagal bago ko matuloy tuloy. :')

Masasabi ko lang...goodluck, sana may maiblog ako, dahil namimiss ko na. :D


-->PIPAY♥ 3/15/12 11:11PM
Chapter 3 of 12.
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"HONESTLY"

How do you call it a day?

How do you call a day...a day? HAHA.

Today was such a happy day for me, but tiring as well.

I enrolled earlier, second semester, in SPUM. Course, ABMC Major in Comm Arts, if you'll ask. We had problems, but after 3 hours, I was enrolled, got my sched, validated my ID and I belong to ABMC-COM 1. Murielle and I are classmates. We have wished that for so long since we were not classmates before.

Then finally, I saw Girlfriends (Cher, JC, Kathryn, Abby and Eva--there was no Karol (she has a class) and Sarah (in Japan of course) So sad.) and we went to Perps. I saw my old teachers, old friends. Everything was rekindled and reminisced, most especially with our heart to heart talk with Miss Celine Pagharion. :)

Then we ate Isaw! Gosh, I missed that. And bonded with Ate Hannie and Kuya Ian (for a short time! -they're so sweet btw!) I had also seen Vinci, I missed this guy, I haven't talked to him for a long tiiiime! :) Then Girlfriends went to my house, we watched something, don't want to expose but it's not X-Rated! HAHAHA! :D

But I just don't know what happened. Tonight, suddenly, I shifted moods. I don;t know if it is about Diego still not replying on my tweets, or other people who were not really replying to me. I just feel so sad. Most especially about a person super duper close to my heart (kulang na lang isiksik ko sya dun). I don't know, it was too sudden.

But then, something's making me happy, a person replied. HAHAHA! =)) But still, I feel so depressed, don't knoooow. Maybe also I can't make it this Thursday for the closing of High School Intramurals and I will miss the chance to seeeeeeee all of my loves! :| Well. It's better to be safe here, most especially I'll save cash! :))

And we do have plans this Friday as well, a HOUSE PARTY! :)) I hope that will really happen ha! :)) And thank you REGINA KATRINA GARONG and ANGEL CONSAD for making me feel better. :">

Well, let's call it a DAY! :)

-->JIMPY♥ 10/24/11 11:45PM.

CHANGE is PERMANENT in this WORLD.

Change is one big thing the world couldn't live without. Change, if we're talking about the nation, is somewhat positive, because there would be developments. But then, as people, change is contrasting. There would be changes that may be for the better, or for the worse.

Most people think that when somebody changes, it's not good. For example, a friend who used to be a down-to-earth, very soft-spoken and very reserved became so noisy, irritating and boastful. That's how most people see it. But then we cannot only blame that person. His surroundings can be a factor to his sudden change, it might be the strangers around him, or worse, his friends.

But then, change depends on the person himself. It's up to him if he will adapt whatever surrounds him, or if he will be brought up by what we call "Peer Pressure". Unfortunately, most people change by this, it's either they don't want to be left alone, or worse, he just wants to be in the trend (magtwitter na lang para trending topic!).

Change is always present in our lives. So always expect it. Because you'll just be disappointed if you're clueless about it. Me, I am already expecting changes, within me, within my surroundings, and within my friends. Good thing my peers are NOT YET CHANGING! :) Or they did na? Not yet sure 'bout that! But I know, they haven't, and I hope they won't. :) Most especially my GIRLFRIENDS. They're still the people I knew from the start. We still do silly things like the "laway-laway thing" or we still get silly in public, like taking pictures around the mall without any disgust or embarrassment, we still shout on the top of our lungs! And that's what I live about them! :))

To my GIRLFRIENDS: Subukan nyong magbago, sasapakin ko kayo. Wag nating kakalimutan that hindi tayo mabubuo if not because of our Craziness! :)) I love you.

Piece of Advice: Always expect changes in this world. Because CHANGE is PERMANENT in this WORLD.

-->JIMPY ♥ 10/15/11

Focus: Positivity

I am really really crazy. HAHA. I am not supposed to be blogging about this, but then, there's an urge of releasing what I really feel. Yes I need to, because if I don't, I will be always bothered, anxious, or whatever, and I don't want sudden anxiety attacks, puh-lease.


Well, here's the thing. I can really sense that one of my closest friends did back stab me. I am really not sure, but I know there is something between the two of us, there is tension. I just don;t want to elaborate about the story, but if that someone will be reading this, well then, I just want to say that, there is really that hard feeling, because I never thought that that's the way you think of me. We have known each other for a long time, and I can really say that you have really changed. I don't know why, but I don't want to just throw our friendship out of the door. And I do hope that you don't forget the super friends you have, and that's us, because we have the bigger part of your life. :') but of course as your super duper as in to the highest level friend, I still do love you of course, and I want us to rekindle the old friendship we had, and if possible, practice that. And I know that you are like "natamaan" with my words, I just thought that, if you are paranoid, you really did something for me to be like this. Well I just want to clear out that it is not you, so stop it.


And then there's this person I am irritated with. This person is like soooo craaaazy. I don't know ha, but if he/she thinks that I should not be above his/her standing, well then the floor is his/hers. I don't need that, I don't need legacy, I don't need to outshine or what, what I need is just to do my thing.


I am really tired of being bullied. I know sometimes I do hurt others feelings because of my so-called "katarayan" or "pang-o-okray", but of course I do have my limitations, I instantly say sorry, and I don't do the same thing over and over again (that's what I think about myself ha). But there is this one guy, I am really getting sick and tired of his f*cking attitude. If he is not capable of understanding other's feelings, then better shut his mouth. Or why not insult himself, well, based on the looks (i'm sorry) and the attitude, he should be the one insulted! :)


But then, I do need to get rid of the pessimism that I am bringing. I don't want to die at this age, and I don't want burdens anymore. I just want now to focus on my studies. I maybe in love, but I am not in a relationship (and as if I will be) and of course, I just want to focus with all the positive vibes Dear God is giving me. :)


Gone the days where I always put my self into negativity and pessimism. Optimistic, happy and positive days should start now. :)


Nasaan Ka, Elisa? This Monday after My Binondo Girl! :))